Sunday, March 27, 2011
I went to Ft Wayne, took a 2 week mental, emotional, break from this, and I have struggled ever since to get myself back on it. I am not going to lie, I have had days where I have wanted to give up, and say to Hell with it, I am OVER this. It has been a real internal struggle. I almost have. But then I think about
Why did I start this in the first place?
Not because I was happy right? No, because I wanted to change, I wanted to be HAPPY, I wanted to change my life.
Was this program what I thought it was going to be?
Absolutely NOT! But Chris warned us right? What in life is easy? Look where easy has gotten me...
Do I feel good about the changes i have made so far?
YES! I am not perfect, and these weeks for me have NOT been perfect, but who is perfect?
Am I the only one that struggles?
NO! I am not alone, that is what these meetings are about! To let us know we are not alone, but can push through our obstacles. We have the support system, Chris gives us that. We just have to use it. Kelly and Sherri have been through this, they know what they are talking about. The rest of us are going through the same thing! It is amazing just a comment from someone can make you look at something totally different.
It's funny, when I began the program, I thought why are all these other's that have already been through the program, going through again... If it works they should be done, haha.... Now I know... This isn't an easy fix, It's not weight watchers, It's a life. This is my life. I am not perfect, I will mess up, I will fall, I am still growing, and learning. I have 32 years of practicing the lifestyle that got me here in the first place, it would be a miracle if it only took 12 weeks to void that.
But... what a great start to the next 32 years of my life!
Thank you to all in this program. Thank you Chris.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Can't seem to get back into the groove... My sleep is off, my eating is off. I am trying to get back into the groove with my workouts, it's been a rough week... I did choose to run instead of attend Saturday's meeting. It was nice to be outdoors and I needed the release. Today's strength workout scares me, lol... can't wait to try it tho.
Great job everyone on your runs this past weekend! I was thinking of all of you!
Monday, February 28, 2011
One day at a time!!!!
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Hope everyone is having a great week!
Sunday, February 20, 2011
So anyways... these next two weeks will be different. I am going to try and be prepared as I can be, make the best choices I can, and try not to stress if my day isn't perfect. Life isn't perfect. It is what it is right?
Have a good week, I am off to deliver cookies ;)
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Sunday, February 6, 2011
I feel great, I really do, my body has detoxed, I don't have my old cravings to sugar, or even carbs the way I did before. My body is reacting to the program so well. I almost can't believe how well. It's like my body is thanking me for treating it right. I am starting to think about food, in a totally different way, in terms of protein content, carbs, and good fat, I check to see what is in it, before I eat it. By all means I am not perfect at this, I don't know if I will ever be, I still like my treats, but I am having different treats now. I cook almost every night, I have been trying to find recipes that my family will eat, and I stock so many fruits and veggies in the house, there is no excuse to have an unhealthy snack.
Awareness is huge, trust is huge. To any of you who aren't all "in" I'm telling you, trust the process, if you just do it, give it 2 weeks, you will notice it too. It's not torture at all, it's not, it's setting yourself free.
This is an awesome experience!
Thursday, February 3, 2011
My workouts have suffered. I only got one in so far, and am planning on getting to the gym today to get another one. It's hard to walk on ice, let alone run, lol... Speaking of, I busted my butt yesterday! Ouch!
Anyways, can't wait to get out of the house today... Hoping to see everyone on Saturday!
Sunday, January 30, 2011
I realized with all of the mixed emotions I was having all I could think about was eating. First I had waited to long to eat, so I was starving, but I wanted to have an eating frenzy. In my own way I did, but not the way the Becky from 2 weeks ago would have. All in all, I went 350 calories over my limit. At the "moment in time" I felt like I was eating thousands of calories, but when I tracked it, it wasn't bad. And it was all within the realm of our healthy food list. That tells me a little something about myself. That through this process I am growing, and little by little I am changing.
While change is not easy, it is worth it.
Food has always been my comfort in one way or another, food wouldn't molest me, food didn't make fun of me, food was always there for me.
Food is not there for my entertainment, food is there to fuel my body. I can't tell you how many things I am noticing about my body's reaction to the good things that are going into it. My tastes are changing, I can taste the sweet in foods, that I would have thought bland or bitter before. I am actually tasting my food! unsweetened coconut, is awesome! it's the little things, lol.
I am starting to appreciate my food, and what it does for me. WOW!
I feel like I woke up to a fresh start, and looking at things through new eyes. haha, well at least for today ;) One day at a time.. Looking forward to the week ahead! No excuses!
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Friday, January 28, 2011
Amazing Black Bean Brownie Recipe
For those of you who have a hard time tracking down agave nectar (which is becoming much more readily available) substitute honey 1:1 for the agave nectar. Ania's head notes encourage you to keep these brownies in the refrigerator, they will slice much better if refrigerated several hours or preferably overnight. I used instant coffee this time around, but you can find natural coffee substitute at many natural food stores.
4 ounces unsweetened chocolate
1 cup unsalted butter
2 cups soft-cooked black beans, drained well (hs: canned is fine)
1 cup walnuts, chopped
1 tablespoon vanilla extract
¼ cup (granulated) natural coffee substitute (or instant coffee, for gluten-sensitive)
¼ teaspoon sea salt
4 large eggs
1½ cups light agave nectar
Preheat the oven to 325°F. Line an 11- by 18-inch (rimmed) baking pan (hs note: or jellyroll pan) with parchment paper and lightly oil with canola oil spray.
Melt the chocolate and butter in a glass bowl in the microwave for 1 1/2 to 2 minutes on high. Stir with a spoon to melt the chocolate completely. Place the beans, 1/2 cup of the walnuts, the vanilla extract, and a couple of spoonfuls of the melted chocolate mixture into the bowl of a food processor. Blend about 2 minutes, or until smooth. The batter should be thick and the beans smooth. Set aside.
In a large bowl, mix together the remaining 1/2 cup walnuts, remaining melted chocolate mixture, coffee substitute, and salt. Mix well and set aside.
In a separate bowl, with an electric mixer beat the eggs until light and creamy, about 1 minute. Add the agave nectar and beat well. Set aside.
Add the bean/chocolate mixture to the coffee/chocolate mixture. Stir until blended well.
Add the egg mixture, reserving about 1/2 cup. Mix well. Pour the batter into the prepared pan. Using an electric mixer, beat the remaining 1/2 cup egg mixture until light and fluffy. Drizzle over the brownie batter. Use a wooden toothpick to pull the egg mixture through the batter, creating a marbled effect. Bake for 30 to 40 minutes, until the brownies are set. Let cool in the pan completely before cutting into squares. (They will be soft until refrigerated.)
Makes 45 (2-inch) brownies.